dreaming
I am sleeping in Ron and Joanne's basement. There are bugs everywhere, literally all over the floor. Spiders and roaches. They are crawling on me. For some reason I feel that I have no where else to go. I must sleep there. When I decide to leave. The bed is removed and the floors are cleaned. There are no bugs and everything looks lovely and new. I am a little girl. I live with my mom. She expects me to take the blame for all her unhappiness and I do. I apologize for everything that happens and try to always make it better. My father steps in once. He is kind of invisible but he speaks to her while I am in the midst of a prolonged apology for existing. He disappears but because of something he says she lets me talk to my sister, Ariel. Ariel is a beautiful red-headed mermaid who has a will of her own. I am so happy to be talking to her.