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I am ill. A paramedic comes and removes my stomach, I am laying outside on a hillside.  He makes a large U cut on my abdomen (where my lower intestines would be).  I am worried that my organs will fail because they won't get enough oxygen.  He places my stomach in a jar and tightens a vice around it from all sides (like a christmas tree stand).  He tells me that he will tighten it so much that drawing a breath will be automatic.  He does and the stomach breathes like a tortured lung.  He has notes about my organs.  I see that both of my ovaries are on one side of my body, always releasing two eggs at the same time.  I say, "That is why I make twins".  I walk around with a bandage on my stomach feeling very victimized and sorry for myself.  No one seems to notice my situation.  I need to get to the hospital to get my stomach back.  I finally collapse on a hill (really I kind of pretend to collapse).  My partner is unaffected by my condition.  I arrive at the hospital.  It

I walk into a small American town, a stranger, with my son.  We look very different.  I have just arrrived from the orient and am clad in indian style attire.  As we walk in people begin to whisper amongst themselves.  The time period seems early in this century.  My son and I progress through a beautifully landscaped area toward a large, ornate stone hotel.  In a fountained foyer I meet a woman who nearly died within her marriage to a man, who was emotionally unavailable and disinterested in her.  She met a man who made her laugh and who spent time playing with her and her son.  Although they don't seem to have an intimate relationship, they are deeply happy with one another.  The husband is so disinterested he doesn't appear to notice although there is a tension in the woman that he may discover and disapproving, take her companion from her.  I walk toward the check in desk, past tables of men smoking cigars and women looking proper.  I hear them passing rumors back and forth

snippets. Someone is playing music by making signs over a water hole and the vibrations are absolutely beautiful.  I look and realize that behind him is the cave.  Noone else in the dream remembers the cave, but I have dreamt of it before and it is where fear dwells embodied as  monsters that eat people. I am in a tall room.  A lawyer of some sorts and I have been recieving hate mail in the form of CD's, I am suddenly worried about my children and I don't know where they are.  I call to Bart Zuber and a girl down below for help (Bart is my nememsis, he represented my ex in our divorce for free).  I give my bird call repeatedly from the high window perch, then I just climb out and scale the side of the wall with skill, climb in another window where I meet Bart and his friend.  Together we find the "bad guys" and I take the worst one, which looks like a thick worm (could it get more freudian) and I squash it until all the insides come out and even then I stare down o

I have recommitted to writing down my dreams, here are a few from last night: 1 I walk past a pool where a toddler sits at the edge holding the foot of a submerged child.  I don't seem to notice really and I go to the bathroom.  When I come back I ask him what he is doing.  He sort of whimpers and then I realize there is a boy drowning.  I race over and pull the stiff boy from the water.  I give him mouth to mouth, all the while berating myself for not noticing sooner.  The boy finally comes too and I end up with a mouth full of his mucus.  Then I am worried about myself getting ill instead of the child and flush my mouth with water. 2 There is a man who has lost his wife when they were young and just married.  They both were knifed in the stomach.  The man lived but not the wife.  When he had to bury his wife he also buried the bible in another deeper whole and with every shovel of dirt he threw on it he gave up God and came to rely solely on his intellect.  He now runs a book