I dream of a cat... white with brown and black spots. I am trying to put the cat out because it is being naughty. The cat won't have it. It is scratching and yelling. I grab it by the fur at its neck and back and carry it to the door. Its claws are out and looking for a fight, it squirms around and wraps all its limbs in a body bind on my right hand and wrist. I ask for help. Shane and my brother help me shake him off. I leave and the boys go outside. I turn around in time to see that they are trying to crush the cat with the legs of a weight bench. I am appalled. I rush outside and tell them to STOP. They do. I am so disgusted with them. I walk away.
rainbow baby
I have been having lots of dreams with disconnected imagery In this one Shane/not Shane was cheating on me. It had become so ordinary that I didn't notice. My house was full of extra children making messes, leaving food and bedding and crumbs everywhere, all of them boys. The house was dark and under cared for. There were puppies in the house too, lots of tiny puppies and I remember thinking, "Why didn't Shane have this dog neutered? My mom will think it is totally irresponsible to bring so many unwanted dogs into the world". Next I am standing in a room/not room, my boys are nearby playing. I am taking off the head of this human size knitted stuffed doll. It is beautiful and knitted out of undyed wools of various colors. I am pulling out the strings that sewed the head to the body, suddenly I realize that I am not okay with my life. I turn to Shane/not-Shane who looks trim and gorgeous in tight geometric patterned pants and a butt...
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